…am i really opting for this ‘new technology’? instead of my kids finding a box of hand written letters, they are going to find a ‘thumb drive’ full of writings. i always thought there was something special a HAND written note contained. i guess, for me, a computerized font takes away the personality of a letter. – and yet here i am. =)
i really don’t know where to begin.
im finding myself desperately wanting to be happy. so so many people have different roads to that. so people say its a spiritual road. some say its the career road. others: the family road, the material road, and the list goes on and on. with all that one can read, its still left up the the individual themselves-meeh- to decide for themselves what will make them happy.
the cause for the opposite of happiness for me-misery, sadness, pain, emptiness-is simply not living. not living to me means going through life living on the surface of everything. the surface of loving. the surface of giving. the surface of your finances. the surface of your family. the surface of yourself. contrary, when you ARE living, things are stable, because they are so deep rooted. deep thought goes into EVERYTHING. from what to eat- remembering health effects- remember those who have no food-remember the joy of eating with a family around you. to what career you will live your life pursuing-remember what you love-remembering what will feed your soul- remembering what will benefit the greater cause. then in between you have who you will love, who you will let love you. deep thought goes into EVERYTHING for me.
i still have yet to find if that is truly the cause of my happiness that i have had momentarily in different parts of my life. or was it the times when i just didn’t think about anything that i was most happy-when i just let the emotions of my heart carry me like the wind carries a feather. i don’t know. maybe it was a balance of both.
we’ll leave it there for now.
